| I've been kinda bummed the past few days and I've been thinking a lot about the past and how much I miss a lot of stuff like...being skanks with Seany, me and Seans song, Kelly, Kayla, Jon, playing horn with Kelly and Kayla, Naffs, having a life, my family, the closeness I once had with people, marching band and everything that goes along with it, McCarthy, having a complete family, being able to go to church, being young and not having a care in the world, my elementary school friends, my Missouri gals, Vanessa, Brendan, Maine, tubing, baths in the lake, pushing eachother off the dock, my aunt and uncle (RIP), jetskiing, our five million boats in Maine, my old neighborhood and my amazing neighbors, getting good grades, understanding what the heck I'm doing in my classes, Boston, watching Red Sox games, going to Phillies games, band trips to Florida, movie nights, having a free weekend, Erika, and most importantly having a strong relationship with God.
Sometimes I just don't know what to do...but I know everything will turn out okay in the end...
So to end this on a good note...I'm extremely happy that....Beth is my best friend, Ashley and I became amazing friends, I'm friends with Nicole, I have Dylan, prom is soon, I have so many amazing memories with people, my first concert this weekend, I have a family that loves me even if we are split apart, going to camp this summer, graduation, I'll be 18 soon, I'm getting a car, I have my own bathroom, my grandparents are here, its almost spring break which means almost Easter which means I can wear makeup again, I have more confidence in myself, I've lost a lot of weight, I got my prom dress, Beth went to YL tonight with me, Maine isn't THAT far away which means seeing Vanessa, Brendan and my Missouri gals, baseball season started, I might be going to a Red Sox game, and I got a 96 on my research paper.
Super nervous for auditions for a solo in choir tomorrow morning... |
